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Happily married for 14 years- celebrating the reality that our children are home

Monday, May 9, 2011

Reality is not for the faint of heart

we had a great day yesterday at church. it was very encouraging to worship our BIG HUGE GOD with His people/our family this far from home.  He is the same GOD in Uganda as He is in the US but they worship him in a way I have rarely seen on our side because they ACTUALLY need Him to sustain them each day.  We are so self sufficient.  it is amazing how we felt so connected even though we could only understand half of what was being said and sung.  The first 2 songs had me crying...the words were "we serve a miracle-working God" and "Things are already better because the Lord is on the throne...I'm already better...you're already better etc." It was hard to admit, to be honest, since my heart was breaking but I am better knowing that He is in control.  

the pastor prayed with us after the service the God would make the crooked places straight and level all the mountains and that we would find favor in all we do this week and that we'd have peace.  The mother's day aspect of the service was nice but bittersweet really  as I face the Reality of our situation. It does not look good at all.  Most likely we will return this Saturday as originally planned but w/o the boys.  I literally feel physically ill as I type that but I can't pretend that the situation is better than it really is just because I want it to be.  We could be here indefinitely.  Everything that had to do w/the paperwork was false about things being ready for our coming here.  We actually consulted with a new lawyer today who would need to start from scratch with our paperwork, but he is at least competent and professional. A refreshing change from our current situation.  we still don't have a court date but are told it may be possible to be heard in court this week.

There are several adoptive families who have been waiting ahead of us and there is no real reason why we should get to go ahead of them in line.  The government declared today that Thursday will be a national/public holiday --just arbitrarily...apparently this happens a lot-- so the courts will not be open.  Also the political opposition leader who caused all the riots is out of the hospital in Kenya and will be returning to Uganda with as much fanfare as he can muster to disrupt the swearing in of the current president.  so safety is also a concern.  

Every time the boys run up to me and say "Mamma!" or just come up to me for a hug or a kiss I feel worse.  What will they think when we leave them here?  We were discussing their possible accommodations with their guardians today.  We have to face facts. 

pool time. Garak was too scared to go in and Hayden hopped right in and was so brave I had to jump in fully clothed to rescue him

so hungry he ate the plate...jk

along the road

market

the sign says "welcome shmuck"  a priceless description of this place

this says it all. It is a billboard at a major rotary in the capital city. which is obviously not functioning correctly...what a shock...

Garak found his inner rap-star today when he discovered "bling"

happy daddy's boy

biggie smalls??

8 comments:

  1. Heartbroken for you, Rach. But it's not over. Lot's of love, ~Sarah

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  2. We are still praying through this. Sarah's right, it's not over yet. He will make a way.

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  3. feeling heartsick with you... i would've been crying too -- they sound like awesome songs, and had awesome timing... God is still good... praying that He will make a way...

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  4. Loving you and crying too! Mom

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  5. untie m sais hadens my pool boy ;] hi praying for u

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  6. So many prayers of deliverance in the Bible take time to remind God of what He's done in the past and call on Him to remember His promises. With 6 days left, I've spent the day reminding Him that while 6 days doesn't seem like enough time to us, He created an entire world out of nothing in 6 days. I've been asking Him to create out of nothing by His mighty power once again: create a court date where there is none, create favor and sympathy for you where it hasn't yet been shown, create wide open paths where up until now there have just been walls, and create peace where we are all overwhelmed with sadness and frustration.

    Lord, please intervene on behalf of Norman, Rachel and the boys. "We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on You." (2 Chron 20:12b)

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  7. How comforting to know that "the Judge of all the earth will do right" Gen. 18:25. We pray, we hope, we trust and then we continue to relinquish our tight grip of control into to His Almighty hands! It is still our intent to pick you folks up on Sunday afternoon. We perceive a need for face to face time and some hugs, etc. We love you dearly. DAD

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